Au revoir Californie!

Tomorrow I'll be leaving California! I am feeling such a wide range of emotions from heart break to absolutely ecstatic. My face hurts from crying because of both of these emotions. I love all of my friends and saying goodbye to them is really hard.. Like REALLY hard, but I know that what's ahead of me is truly life changing and that my friends will be here for me when I get back! My life is about to go from crazy to crazier and I'm ready. I don't know what to expect; I don't know how I'm supposed to feel, so I decided to make a few guidelines for myself: 

1. Go with the flow.

So my train is running 20 minutes late, enjoy the extra time looking out the window and introducing myself to the person sitting next to me instead of stressing about how it will affect plans. You have no control over it and it is not your fault! 

2. Embrace the confusion.

This will be a hard one for me. I'm not going to know what people are talking about most of the time. I'm going to nod my head and smile. And I need to be okay with that! It is normal and I should not get frustrated with myself for not understanding.

3. Try your hardest even though you aren't going to be a straight A student.

I am used to having great grades here. I cannot be expected to get those same grades while taking courses in a different language. ITS OKAY. 

4. Put yourself out there. Constantly.

I'm usually pretty outgoing, just want to make sure I don't get shy because I'm not always going to be in my comfort zone.

5. DO NOT let insecurities hold you back. 

You are not going to be as thin or as smart as all of these French girls, but you are freaking beautiful and smart (just a bit smarter in English) lol . Don't let stupid things hold you back from living these ten months to the most. 

6. Have fun.

Stop worrying and just have fun. 

Thank you to all the people who have supported me throughout this crazy journey! I will try to update this blog like crazy whenever I can squeeze in some time!