Saturday, September 13, 2014

Dream Come True...


I feel as if I have lived a lifetime since leaving Paso Robles just ten days ago. When I think about how far I am from the Friday night lights watching the Bearcats dominate the field or acting my heart out in an audition for A Christmas Carol, it feels strange. Leaving PRHS was honestly very hard for me. The beginning of this journey was bitter-sweet, but I think, or I hope, that I am making my school proud.
My journey started with a plane ride out of Oakland, CA and it has ended up here in Lugny, France. It was short in time, but very long in experiences.
My first stop after Oakland (besides a short layover in Boston) was New York City. In New York, there was an orientation for 200 American students who were studying abroad in many different countries this fall. It was exciting to meet everyone and I made a lot of friends during the two days that we were there. On the fourth of September, we boarded our flights to which ever country we were headed to. In my case, the flight was to Paris! I, along with 50 other American students, found my seat on the huge aircraft and settled down for a nice six hour flight. Once we got there, we were on our own. It was hectic trying to find our luggage, hopping aboard the tram, and finally going through customs and meeting the incredible AFS France volunteers.
In Paris, teenagers from all over the world were arriving at our orientation sight country by country.  As each group arrived, we greeted them with cheers of “It’s the Italians!” or “Look, the Brazilians!” We were assigned roommates from all different countries who would live in the same area as us in France. When everyone had arrived, there were 288 students of all different nationalities anxiously awaiting their trains to their host families!
This orientation was helpful, exciting, and eye-opening. Getting to know people of all different races and cultures gave me a new sense of empathy and a more global outlook on life.  We toured Paris on my sixteenth birthday, and YES it was the most incredible birthday I have ever had. The most interesting part of this orientation, in my opinion, was the fact that we were connecting. Teens from 50 different countries had the same ideas, fears, humor, ect. It was truly life changing and it had a bitter-sweet ending. We were all excited to meet our host families, jet-lagged to death, and sad to leave our new friends so soon. As we boarded our separate trains, numbers were exchanged, hugs were given, and faces lit up with excitement and nervousness.
My train was headed to Dijon with twelve exchange students aboard. This train was… difficult to board. Just imagine twelve teenagers with very little French language skills carrying three suitcases aboard a train which was already crowded. Difficult to say the least, but an experience that I can say I got through without too much stress. Arriving in Dijon, our hearts were beating faster and faster as the train pulled into the station. Our nerves were quickly whisked away by the bright smiles of our host families and the AFS volunteers.  Everyone was excited to meet us and we all headed to lunch where my host family presented a birthday cake and gift to me. I felt welcomed at once and could not wait to get to my new home in Lugny!
 Lugny is the cutest little town, the epitome of French with stone buildings, narrow streets and a bakery just steps from your door.  My life here is simple, which I very much enjoy. There have been some exhilarating moments on my journey so far such as hearing hundreds of teenagers from all corners of the globe sing happy birthday to me under the Eiffel tower or being mobbed and interrogated on the first day of school. Those were some amazing moments, but my favorite moments are the little ones. The quiet hike up the mountain near my house with views to die for, the gathering of my French family around the bread and cheese covered dinner table, and the flashes of light that come through the skylight in my room from the lightening storms. These have been my favorite so far.
I am immersed in a whole new world of cobble stone streets and three-course dinners and I just wish that I could send a care package bursting full with every scent, taste, touch, sound and every sight I have seen to my loved ones because I have no words to describe the joy they have brought me.
When I made the decision to study abroad, I did not fully understand the gifts it would give me. Ten days. In just ten days, I have been filled with this culture and I love every bit of it. I have also learned a few lessons:
1.       Go with the flow.
When all of us got to the train station in Paris, luggage in hand, ready to board our trains, we were given the news that we would have to wait another two hours before our trains arrived. Did we complain and talk about how we could have slept in longer? No! We decided to start a card game right there in the middle of the train station! The two hours flew by too fast and we became even better friends!
2.       Just eat it; it (probably) won’t kill you.
Yes, I ate sausage made solely of cow stomach. Did I like it? Not at all. Did it make my host family happy that I at least tried to indulge in the culture? Yes! Did it kill me? Not yet!
3.       Take every opportunity.
If I let my fear of failure hold me back, I would not be in France,  I wouldn’t have had any of the most incredible experiences of my life, and I wouldn’t be happy.

Saturday, September 6, 2014

Paris at last..

I have arrived in Paris! The flight to Paris was great although I couldn't sleep at all because of the time change! The first day in Paris we got to the hostel and got our rooms and roommates! I am rooming with Irmak, Alexis, Amanda, and Mikki from Turkey, New York, Norway, and Japan! There are 288 teenagers from all over the world here! I have met so many people and heard a huge variety of languages! Today we went to Paris and it was incredible! It's my 16th birthday today and people have sung happy birthday to me many times in all different languages! Under the Eiffel Tower everyone sang to me and It made me super happy. We made a huge circle near the Eiffel Tower and did something a lot like our circle that we do in our theatre Co. Before a show! It was crazy and super fun. Everyone was staring at us and taking videos. Tomorrow I will meet my host family and I'm so excited! I can't wait to finally be in my new home and go to school! Every single French person I have met so far has been SO nice! So one stereotype proven wrong so far! The volunteers here are all really young and they are super fun and laid-back which is nice! So it's really just 288 teens with 20 young adults.. So I will update when I get to my host family!!

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Au revoir Californie!

Tomorrow I'll be leaving California! I am feeling such a wide range of emotions from heart break to absolutely ecstatic. My face hurts from crying because of both of these emotions. I love all of my friends and saying goodbye to them is really hard.. Like REALLY hard, but I know that what's ahead of me is truly life changing and that my friends will be here for me when I get back! My life is about to go from crazy to crazier and I'm ready. I don't know what to expect; I don't know how I'm supposed to feel, so I decided to make a few guidelines for myself: 
1. Go with the flow.
So my train is running 20 minutes late, enjoy the extra time looking out the window and introducing myself to the person sitting next to me instead of stressing about how it will affect plans. You have no control over it and it is not your fault! 
2. Embrace the confusion.
This will be a hard one for me. I'm not going to know what people are talking about most of the time. I'm going to nod my head and smile. And I need to be okay with that! It is normal and I should not get frustrated with myself for not understanding.
3. Try your hardest even though you aren't going to be a straight A student.
I am used to having great grades here. I cannot be expected to get those same grades while taking courses in a different language. ITS OKAY. 
4. Put yourself out there. Constantly.
I'm usually pretty outgoing, just want to make sure I don't get shy because I'm not always going to be in my comfort zone.
5. DO NOT let insecurities hold you back. 
You are not going to be as thin or as smart as all of these French girls, but you are freaking beautiful and smart (just a bit smarter in English) lol . Don't let stupid things hold you back from living these ten months to the most. 
6. Have fun.
Stop worrying and just have fun. 

Thank you to all the people who have supported me throughout this crazy journey! I will try to update this blog like crazy whenever I can squeeze in some time!